The One Who Comforts

I invite you to read a personal, heart-tugging message of Wanda’s for Women Walking with Jesus.

Woman walking cross country and trail in autumn forestBy Wanda Ward

For some of us we must embrace the fact that we will never look into the eyes of another little being that shares our same biological make-up. I was just a few months away from completing my senior year in college, when I discovered that I would need to have surgery again to treat endometriosis. In the days leading up to surgery, I debated whether I should go through it again or not.

Was I trusting God to heal me? Did I not have enough faith? Those questions taunted me at times. Although I since have settled in it my mind and heart that sometimes healing comes miraculously and other times it comes through the aide of the skilled hands of physicians. And even still some time healing does not look the way we expect at all. Yet it is Jehovah who is our Great Physician.

After talking with my pastor at the time and praying I received peace about proceeding with the procedure. I still remember the day before surgery, I had such peaceful assurance that Jesus was right along with me and that no matter what the doctor said all would be well. The news I awaken to several hours later was not one that most young unmarried women with no children would want to hear. Yet I was relieved to know there wasn’t any cancer and the pain I had lived with for years would be over.

Life has a way of being the best of times and the worst of times simultaneously. Hannah was one woman who knew about the duplicity of life. She had the love and favor of her husband, who gave her a double portion. Yet even with the abundance of her portion, it didn’t take Hannah’s eyes off the emptiness of her barren womb. Her extra portion didn’t silence the taunting of a rival wife or the inner turmoil she felt about her condition.

Like Hannah, I have been blessed in so many other ways but there are rare moments when the sting of tears dots my eyes. Journeying with Jesus doesn’t guarantee we will not face obstacles or that everything will turn out the way we always hope. Yet His grace is sufficient for us. A favorite verse, I have come to lean on is, Isaiah 43:2

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. (NLT)

Jesus does not leave us to face our difficulties alone. He walks with us through it.

WandaWanda Ward is a directionally-challenged southern girl, who often finds herself lost in a good book. By day she works as a case management coordinator and spends her free time as a blogger, reader, CSS and HTML digger. She enjoys a glass of cold coca-cola, although she has found that nothing truly satisfies her thirst quite like Jesus. You can connect with Wanda via her blog, The Watered Soul  or on Twitter @TheWateredSoul.


17 Responses to The One Who Comforts

  1. Oh Wanda, I too suffered from endometriosis since I was a teenager. I also had surgeries to help deal with the pain. I knew having children would be challenging and uncertain. Before I married, I told my husband-to- be so he would be aware of that uncertainty. But my dream was to be happily married with several children. Despite prayer and trusting the Lord, I was unable to have children. After much ongoing pain, a hysterectomy was the option I took and I felt so much better physically for the first time in years.

    Fast forward many years, I look back and realize how awesome our God really is! He hears my prayers and blessed me with a job working with little children. Every time I hear a little child say “I love you Miss Debbie”, I silently whisper a prayer thanking Jesus.

    Blessings and love,

    • Hi Debbie, it’s definitely one of those things you have to be upfront with to potential partner. I do not regret having the surgeries because I have lived pain free for years and for that I’m most grateful!

  2. Wanda, Thank you so much for sharing your story of pain and healing. Thank you for sharing the reality of your situation and that healing is an ongoing process. Jesus is always with us when the sting of “whatever our situation” rises and attacks us. I praise God that you and have have a Savior who fights our battles for us and comforts us through the storms.
    Love, hugs, and prayers,

  3. Thank you for sharing your heart and God’s faithfulness in a transparent way Wanda. I know that many can see themselves in various parts of your story. Thankful that no matter what the wounds of life are, Jesus comforts and strengthens us through them all. Blessings to you!

  4. I had a friend who suffered in this way, too. This startled me because her name is Wanda, too. She’s leaned hard on Jesus. You’ve written this beautifully, Wanda. How dear you are to our Heavenly Father.

  5. I also suffered with the health issue you spoke of. It was terrible to endure. My heart goes out to you and the heartache of not having children as a result. I do have two daughters, however the pain and suffering continued until I also had a hysterectomy. Many hearts will be blessed as a result of you caring enough to share your faith. God bless!

    • What a blessing that you were able to have children Renee. I finding it’s a condition that many women suffer. Our stories are often not the way we would have written but nonetheless the testify to goodness of God. Many blessings to you.

  6. What a beautiful testimony, Wanda! I am so sorry to hear of all of the pain and suffering you have endured, and trust the Lord will bless you with continued good health. You are a blessing to me!

  7. Wanda, I recall reading this post when it was first posted. However, I was got side-tracked and failed to post a comment. We face so many things in this life, don’t we? If only the road was obstacle free. Yet then we would have no need for our wonderful Savior. And I am so glad you lean on Him to bring you peace when things go in a direction we never expected or planned for. For a woman, situations and diagnoses that affect our fertility are always challenging – physically and emotionally. I thank you for so freely sharing your story. I’m thankful you find comfort and peace in the One who holds us all.

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