I invite you to read a personal, heart-tugging message of Wanda’s for Women Walking with Jesus.
For some of us we must embrace the fact that we will never look into the eyes of another little being that shares our same biological make-up. I was just a few months away from completing my senior year in college, when I discovered that I would need to have surgery again to treat endometriosis. In the days leading up to surgery, I debated whether I should go through it again or not.
Was I trusting God to heal me? Did I not have enough faith? Those questions taunted me at times. Although I since have settled in it my mind and heart that sometimes healing comes miraculously and other times it comes through the aide of the skilled hands of physicians. And even still some time healing does not look the way we expect at all. Yet it is Jehovah who is our Great Physician.
After talking with my pastor at the time and praying I received peace about proceeding with the procedure. I still remember the day before surgery, I had such peaceful assurance that Jesus was right along with me and that no matter what the doctor said all would be well. The news I awaken to several hours later was not one that most young unmarried women with no children would want to hear. Yet I was relieved to know there wasn’t any cancer and the pain I had lived with for years would be over.
Life has a way of being the best of times and the worst of times simultaneously. Hannah was one woman who knew about the duplicity of life. She had the love and favor of her husband, who gave her a double portion. Yet even with the abundance of her portion, it didn’t take Hannah’s eyes off the emptiness of her barren womb. Her extra portion didn’t silence the taunting of a rival wife or the inner turmoil she felt about her condition.
Like Hannah, I have been blessed in so many other ways but there are rare moments when the sting of tears dots my eyes. Journeying with Jesus doesn’t guarantee we will not face obstacles or that everything will turn out the way we always hope. Yet His grace is sufficient for us. A favorite verse, I have come to lean on is, Isaiah 43:2
When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. (NLT)
Jesus does not leave us to face our difficulties alone. He walks with us through it.
Wanda Ward is a directionally-challenged southern girl, who often finds herself lost in a good book. By day she works as a case management coordinator and spends her free time as a blogger, reader, CSS and HTML digger. She enjoys a glass of cold coca-cola, although she has found that nothing truly satisfies her thirst quite like Jesus. You can connect with Wanda via her blog, The Watered Soul or on Twitter @TheWateredSoul.