“Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” Proverbs 22:6 NLT
When my children were little, I carried a bag with a Bible, journal, and pen everywhere I went. Anytime I had a spare moment, I grabbed them and began reading, studying, and writing. With moments scarce, I continued to persevere.
On many days, I became frustrated. My thoughts were randomly interrupted by flying Lego’s, a pint size boy dressed in batman pajamas leaping from the arm of the sofa confident he could fly, or some other equally demanding emergency. With pint size emergencies attaining nearly every ounce of my attention, I questioned God.
Crying out to God, I said, “Why should I keep doing this? I can’t possibly be retaining anything? What’s the purpose?”
I wanted to be a great mom as much as I wanted to obey God, but I wasn’t sure how I could do both. It just didn’t seem like it was working. In the midst of my frustration, God spoke to my heart saying, “Continue on!” and I did.
Surely this endeavor would get easier as my pint size boys grew into adolescents and teenagers. Wrong! As we entered into the adolescent and teen years I remarried and two teen girls were added to my three boys. Yep, you heard me correctly. I entered the land of four teens and an adolescent. Oh, and did I mention my own reentry into the local community college as a full time student? Once again, I found myself questioning God again. And again, God answered, “Continue on!” and I did.
Many times during those years, I was beyond distraught trying to keep up with it all. However, every available moment I could be found reading my Bible, journaling, and writing. Though I do not remember much of what I read or studied, I remember the presence of my Lord and Savior, Jesus holding me up. Yes, Jesus was with me every step of the way.
One by one, my children have become independent adults and the craziness of life has taken on a new shape. My daily quiet time is actually quiet most days and has grown tremendously, but I think about all the days when I was dragging my “Bible-bag” as the kids called it to horse shows, school parking lots, football games, and many other places.
As I reflect back, I see God graciously molding and shaping my heart and life through His word. I see God’s grace through the giving of His son, Jesus mercifully poured out through the life of my family. A few days ago, God reminded me of the importance of trusting Him, allowing Him to order my days, and the impact my days have on the lives of those around me.
While riding in the car with two of my grandchildren, Savannah and Elijah, my heart was touched as I heard six year old Savannah reading lengthy Bible stories to her three year old cousin, Elijah. A little later, Savannah said, “Eli, I love you from the grass all the way to Jesus…..that’s how much!”
So, on the days when you wonder why you are reading/studying God’s word, know you are the Jesus those precious little blessings see every day of their lives. And as your teens test every nerve you have and stomp all over your heart, know Jesus is working in and through your life and theirs in ways beyond my capacity to explain to and your ability to comprehend.
Soldier on, friends! Jesus is with you each and every step of the way.
By His mercy and in the grip of His grace,
Andrea Perdue. I’m a wife, mom to a blended family, nana, and friend who embraces life seeking to become the person God created me to be. My days are full, but there is always time for writing, reading, and sharing Jesus grace and love with others. It’s my prayer God will use me in the craziness of each day. Please connect with Andre at Arise2Write or on faceook.com./andrea.perdue