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“Just as I am tho’ tossed about,
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings and fears within, without
O Lamb of God, I come…I come”
Those were the words I heard in my spirit Monday morning. Mad at the enemy and his evil schemes, mad at my own destructive habits and insecurities, mad that life was not behaving and mad that it wasn’t the first time I had felt this way. Abundant life? Where? How? When, Jesus?
I thought of Bible study at a friend’s house and the challenge she issued. She asked us to use the next few weeks to come up with our “one thing.”
David had one thing.
One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. (Psalm 27:4 NIV84)
He also heard from God on one thing and then two things.
One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving. Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done. (Psalm 62:11-12 NIV84)
Mary desired one thing – the better thing.
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:41-42 NIV84)
The blind man that Jesus healed knew one thing.
He replied, “Whether he is a sinner or not, I don’t know. One thing I do know. I was blind but now I see!” (John 9:25 NIV84)
Paul had one thing.
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14 NIV84)
So there I sat — wondering what my one thing was. I have so many desires and plans and dreams. Desires for my children. Plans for my husband and me. Dreams for my family in the years to come. But in that moment I was challenged to come up with the one thing that I desired most. What would it be?
In that moment a strange thought occurred to me. It sounded something like this. “Jesus, I want what David wanted – to dwell in Your house all the days of my life, to gaze upon Your beauty, to see You for Who You really are and to see myself as You see me, and to spend the rest of my days seeking You in Your Word and through Your presence. I want this for my husband. I want this for my children. But Jesus, why does it always have to be a struggle? Why does it always seem to be a fight?”
It was a strange thought, really, but looking back over my life and the “fightings and fears within, without” I could see the thread that had run through my life from even my youngest years as a child. A thread of being afraid and striving, in my own strength, after the things of Christ.
No sooner had the thought come through my mind, my eyes dropped down to my Bible that had fallen open to Exodus.
The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14:14 NIV84)
That was it – my one thing — to finally lay down the weapons that I have been fighting with in all futility for 40 something years and let the Lord God, the Mighty Warrior, fight for me — all the while I get to rest, be still and seek the better thing sitting at Jesus’ feet.
And then my heart began to sing:
It’s not in trying but in trusting
It’s not in running but in resting
Not in wondering but in praying
That we find the strength of the Lord
He bids me come to sit still and let Him fight. He is, after all, mighty to save!
The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” (Zephaniah 3:17 NIV84)
Dori Cook. I am the wife of my very best friend, the mother of two amazing kids, a sister, a daughter, a friend — but more importantly, I am a forgiven Child of God saved by the blood of Jesus Christ. I have to say that His Word really is life to me and without Him I am nothing. I think my greatest joy — outside of my wonderful husband and kids — is studying God’s Word and hearing Him speak directly to me and my circumstances. My passion is to tell others that they, too, can be changed by Jesus Christ! I would be so honored if you joined me over at my website at Far Down the Road