By Tammy Rude
Romans 8:28 (NIV) And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
The last several months, I’ve shared my walk with Jesus on a subject most of us rarely talk about, abortion. My hope is for those experiencing this deep hurt, that you will find help with someone you trust and let Jesus heal your brokenness.
The process wasn’t easy for me but it so worth it! If someone would have told me all the things God would restore in my life, to name just one, the relationship with my daughter, I would’ve never believed it.
And if you don’t mind, friends, I’d like to share one more story of God’s incredible mercy along my walk with Jesus…
It was like any other day at the abortion facility, cars were pulling into the parking lot between the white lines, turning off their engine and the couple would then go inside together. While others would pulled up to the entrance to drop her off and yell “I’ll be back to get ya!”
My daughter, Sydney, and I could see all this commotion as we turned the corner to the pizza shop on our way to participate in a prayer vigil to end abortion, known as 40 Days for Life.
When I had decided to join this campaign which was being held in our city, never in my wildest dream did I think Sydney would be standing next to me.
Why would she? It was at this facility where I had my abortion over 20 years ago. It was there my heart turned to stone and Satan began building a mountain between her and I.
Remembering that day, I could see myself walking toward the door of deception as I made the ‘decision’ to trust my ways and not God’s ways. At the time, I wasn’t concerned with the outcome from this choice. To be honest, I never thought that having an abortion would change anything except give ME the freedom to go on living MY LIFE. But soon I would learn that taking one life didn’t give me freedom, it caused my life to stand still. To be frozen in time.
So there we were, years later standing in a small area off to the side of the building that had claimed her brother’s life. With our heads bowed, and our fingers locked together we prayed to Almighty God asking Him to change hearts. To save not one…but two lives.
Within moments, Sydney leaned over and softly whispered… “Mom, this is awesome and sad all at the same time. Awesome because I can feel the presence of Jesus and sad because I know the outcome of this decision. I just want to run up to each of those girls and tell them there is another way, another choice.” As I lifted my head, I saw my baby girl’s eyes filling with tears. Silently, I gave thanks to Jesus for her tender heart and for restoring our relationship.
Isn’t it just like God to take our selfish- choices or circumstances that have come against us and uses it to show His love? He has a way of moving the mountain that is blocking the blessing. For some it falls like the walls of Jericho and for others its one stone at a time.
This uncomfortable journey as lead me to a place of confidence in Christ. It’s helped me to come along side others with this same heaviness as we step up to the mountain together removing one stone at a time.
Allowing Jesus to restore what Satan has set out to destroy will take courage, trust and a humble heart. But I know you can do it!
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (NLT) All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.
Is there an area where Jesus wants to comfort you? Is He asking you to let Him move that mountain even if it might be one stone at a time?
Tammy Rude is a wife, mother, and women’s leader who is living a restored, Christ-centered life. Tammy speaks and writes with transparency using lessons learned through her struggles with marriage, motherhood, depression, and ultimately through her victory by God’s redeeming power. She enthusiastically presents practical Bible-centered solutions to the problems every woman and family face. Her tender yet firm style challenges listeners and readers to lay down excuses and confront personal obstacles in the power available to them through Jesus Christ. Connect with Tammy at her blog Not Mine but God’s Story or on facebook.com/tammyrude