Change will come. How many times have you heard that in your life?
For me, it all started in the spring of 2012. Change was moving in and I thought God had left me. One morning I woke up and there I was, right in the middle of a vast desert. I felt alone, exhausted from the heat of Hell and thirsty for the presence of God. Have you been there? It’s a horrible place to be but sometimes it’s necessary. Yes my friends… necessary. Jesus spent time there, so why shouldn’t we?
Walking through this wilderness of dry land, I had lost relationships, needed to let go of a ministry, and watched our daughter leave to live in another state with her new husband. Yea, Satan was working overtime with my emotions while he slowly gripped my head with the claws of fear.
For months I cried out to God. No, I yelled… “Where are You?” Now we all know that He didn’t go anywhere. It was I who pulled up a stone to sit on and began conversing with the enemy. Yet, how wonderful our God is! He never stops perusing us, does He? Praise Jesus that He doesn’t leave us where we are.
Losing friendships isn’t easy. Being betrayed is a hard pill to swallow. Yet, we can be sure our Lord sees the BIGGER picture and can turn misery into a message.
Leaving the longtime ministry which I loved so dearly was very difficult, but God reminded me of Abraham and how he was called to leave a place of comfort …his homeland. Nevertheless, Abraham trusted God by putting one sandaled foot in front of the other and obediently following to “new” things not yet known to him.
Letting go of my daughter had to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. In May of 2013, she married her high school sweetheart and now we are entrusting her to this young man. We are charging him with loving her the way we loved her.
Accepting change? Impossible. But with God all things are possible! You gotta love the BUT.
There is newness that comes when we seek the ways of Jesus. He assures us in His Word.
Isaiah 55:8 (NLT)
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.
“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
During my ‘what am I going to do moments’ God reminded me in a whisper… “there are still things left undone … things you’ve set aside for such a time as this … new things. Do you remember when your eyes fell on the message of hope written in Isaiah?”
Isaiah 43:19 (NLT)
For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.
We need not to entertain the voice of the enemy. But we must turn the pages of God’s Word in order to find the promises He has for each of us. We may not see it, but He is clearing the way to higher ground for each of His children. We can only imagine what God has planned. In time it will be revealed, but until then we must trust Him.
Today I can see where God carried, orchestrated, and even flipped things upside down to get me to this place.
So now my journey of conversation with you begins. Through this series of writings I’ll have new stories to share, messages of past mistakes made whole, and confirmations of His promises fulfilled. My desire is that you gain hope and strengthen in your faith. And of course we’ll build new friendships. Yes, friendships, right here on this pathway to something new.
Tammy Rude is a wife, mother, and women’s leader who is living a restored, Christ-centered life. Tammy speaks and writes with transparency using lessons learned through her struggles with marriage, motherhood, depression, and ultimately through her victory by God’s redeeming power. She enthusiastically presents practical Bible-centered solutions to the problems every woman and family face. Her tender yet firm style challenges listeners and readers to lay down excuses and confront personal obstacles in the power available to them through Jesus Christ. Connect with Tammy at her blog Not Mine but God’s Story or on facebook.com/tammyrude